Its just a matter of Time !!

The pain is not from the heart break,

Its from the fear for future.

All the times i believed,

i believed the story i built in my head !

If at all i could blame anybody ,

It can rightfully be me & only Me.

At times i wish dreams came true,

but what if all the dreams came true ..ha ha sigh !!

Its really funny how a silly crazy thing can lead unto a big black cloud,

turning a weak drizzle into a terrifying storm of salt water.

What if i was left down ,

i can stand up myself ,  its just a matter of time !

The Four letter Word !

Wondering what ? You should have guessed by now - Its LOVE !
And here i am only talking about a girl & a guy LOVE !

What i always wondered and still wonder is about the knots that actually bind two people together !
Is it just about understanding each other's likes, dislikes, mood swings , friends , family bla bla
and some even say its about compromising with each each others negatives & positives ..that is it huh !
I even had people say you got to be compatible physically & mentally ??
Is that so simple to have two people live happily ever after ??

What i believed and still do believe is , its love when

I do not speak, yet he responds,
I do not ask,  yet he gives,
I do not complain yet he stops doing what annoys me
I do not cry yet he lends a hug
I do not fall yet he holds my hand

I do not want him say I love you every time he bids a bye or drops the call rather i would want him show how much he misses me when he is away !

I do not want him to always come along with me everywhere but i would want him to make me feel belonged and not lonely !

The terrible or the worst of worst incident for him should be when i cry and he should be able to take any hardship on earth but not my tears ! Which also means he would never want to see me cry !

For me i would feel every other man worthless to even  have a second look at and he should feel like there is no other woman as beautiful and interesting as me ever before and after (even if i am not )

And if i am angry all that i would want him do is to listen all the shit i talk and not shut the door or slam the phone over !

He should love me being myself and make other woman envy by giving a damn to them.

It should be the same man i know with me and his friends ! Not a changed person !

And i always believe there is difference between being in love and being madly in love ! Being madly loved is a bliss !

And always always Actions speak louder than words, so show love do not speak love !


Now !!! Doesn't life seem to complicated and doesn't loving and being loved seem too difficult ??

Sigh !!!

Santa now you know what i want for this Christmas :) ;)

Merry Christmas :)

Money Does not grow on trees - (Source : PM Sir)

Whoa !! Our PM just spoke after really long time but not for good at all ! As usual grabbed the newspaper for some headlines and nothing more but that morning a statement caught my attention and made me read the entire article on the front page and the eye catchy line was " Money does not grow on trees ". Well ,all of us know this but when this line comes from PM of a nation its something more to just what it is.

If the honorable man really had meant those lines then my question is why now ??? Why not say this when all the BIG scams came to light ?? (was that not money)Why not think this while the coalgate scam ?? )was that not money) You also made a question of " from where would all the money come to fund the several schemes for the poor ?" ( lol ) are we supposed to answer that ??? We are paying our taxes right ??
If all that tax went where it has to go , if all the black money (which is evidently noticeable to all of us except you ) is recovered and if the money allotted to any project is being used exactly for that purpose and not to please the tummies of your friends and relatives (i understand sir its your duty) then your question is answered Sir !

And Sir you are absolutely right in saying money does not grow on trees and it is very much the same reason why we the normal people (brainless people as you think us as) are protesting against the fuel hikes and the FDI bill. I was very glad when you said that FDI would bring in more jobs to the country but then i thought we were developing and not the other way round. The jobs we would be getting in bulk are sales officers right and a few thousands of middle level jobs and here my question is who are eligible for this job? You expect the current kirana shop owner to work for mere Rs10,000 where the job is not even a secure one? You speak about quality and price also but are you going to assure this or your government because we have not forgotten the Bhopal Gas tragedy yet ( a fruit of foreign investment back then) everybody knows this and even you Sir !

Also Sir, i got to know that you have sanctioned 100 crore for advertisements just to create awareness among people of our country about economic reforms ie  to justify the hikes and FDI ! Wow Sir really we are overwhelmed to know where our hard earned money is going and pretty happy about the fact that our money is being used to justify all the scams and make you richer Sir ! And yes Sir , Money does not grow on trees !

Was this sudden outburst from you a revolt against all that image damage happening all over the world ?? Or was it to show that you can make statements too and can be aggressive as well (unfortunately we felt it was childish may be it is because we are Brainless ) But Sir don't you think its a little late ..Oops.

But Sir from the bottom of my heart i am proud and its a such a great moment that " You Spoke Sir " !

PS: Please Sir, don't put me behind bars i was just trying to educate myself and would want hear more often from you so that i can have humor in my boring life Sir :)

Recurring !

Why does it have to repeat itself,
is it cause i let it happen to myslef ?

each time i sow the seed,
it grows to become my need
but leaves tears to bleed.

Is it dat i can never find one
or is it that there are none
All i asked for was to treat me right
all i got was tears every night.


Larger the dream,
massive is the pain.
And this time , i'm broke deep inside,
that my heart aches while my soul bleeds.

I cry myslef to sleep,
only to wake up for another iteration !
 

MASK !

Was i looking into those faces with masks on,
all that time when i thought i was on cloud 9.
I can't believe the fact that you were all FAKE !

Time passed by as always,
the masks withered and showed the ugly faces !

You are so ugly that i got goosebumps (literally)
all i could do was ignore you dumbs !

Yes, I'm glad i'm shattered
atleast now i know i'm not always RIGHT !

Yes, I'm glad i'm depressed
atleast now im not happy for the wrong reasons !

Yes, I'm glad i was WRONG,
atleast now i know what is right !

Yes, I'm glad i remember you,
Atleast im sure il not let this happen again !

Yes, I'm glad i knew you,
Atleast i know how it hurts to love & hate !

Yes,I'm glad i know you better now,
atleast i'm sure how a FAKE looks like !

All of you who gave up on me , i pity you !
Coz i would have never given up on you if you din't !

Justice Givers or Hooligans

I was ashamed that day (02March2012-Bangalore) for being a part of this system.The learned / so -called educated , behaved like typical hooligans ,not having one percent of humanity towards fellow humans.Why is it so difficult to control oneself, is it not the same pain that you are afraid of ? Why is it different when it comes to others?

The Lawyers , whose only purpose is to provide justice to the society could not find a justified way to deal with their problem against the media. Is'nt it rediculous.What a great example or rather motivation the eminant bodies of the society (i.e The court ,The Police, The Media) have given to the common people? Now does this mean that if i have any kind of problem with anybody i'l just pick up a stone and pelt on that person??? Wow how simple is'nt it..... Don't have to file an FIR, dont have to bribe the cops, don't have to climb up the court's staircase a million times, don't have to worry about the lawyer's huge fee !!!!

All this while it was only in the Sabhas we could see the child play but now everywhere.Thanks to the rediculous aggression of the lawyers. Now for all that stupidity of theirs its we common people who are suffering because they'l boycott the court inorder to protest against media meanwhile we the people have to wait for our JUSTICE!!!

Since the incident has happened my family is waiting for the court to function normally as we have an important hearing but a million thanks to the lawyers for making our lives a bit more miserable.

Expecting a quick , descent & justified action from the government but as all of us know that will never happen in a country like ours!!!

Childhood Friend is Engaged !

That night before the engagement she says " Im so NERVOUS & darn SHY "
And i laughed out loud :D ( i ve reasons for this).

Because, all those things we did together :P what all ..*Sigh * and not a single instant can i recall where she was nervous&shy lol :P
all those silly games,pranks & our madness for food :D all the arguments she used to have with comms streetwala's :P(never seen her nervous der :P)
all the guts she had to argue with the traffic police  ( din't see her nervous der :P)
all those days when she stood quarelling with me for some stupid reason ( never saw her shy there :P)
Never seen her Nervous&Shy&Happy all at once :D

I'm glad she is experiencing it :) Guess this is what happens when one finds her Tall,dark & handsome guy she always wanted to be with :)

Love :)